“They are ready to give you new opportunity and they are really sorry for their behavior. “
“Whatever!” I shrugged, “I am not ready to forgive yet. “
As I kept the phone to mute the world and relax in my silence, I remembered Mara, my best friend from high school. She was the one who introduced the word “Whatever” to my life.
“Why do you say that word all the time?” I asked her once.
“It makes me feel free, unhindered, as if nothing else can stop my life, you know. Nothing else is more important right now.” she explained to me clearly.
My mom thinks that words of people who we love work like addictive drugs: they govern us, they haunt us, and they make us and, maybe, break us too.
My friendship with Mara was meant to last forever, “Birds of a feather flock together. We are soul sisters with same hair style and a shared heart. “, she grinned each time someone asked her if we were twins.
I believed her more than I believed my mirror, “Sisters and BFFs – best friends forever! “
“Whatever! Just for an eternity. Forever!” she reassured.
High school happened more than a decade ago when BFF was not a prevailing word but real friendship was quite prevalent.
Sometimes I think, “Forever” is the most ephemeral word. Mara and I live in the same country. We spoke only once in last 5 years. Love shrivels, stories fade into passiveness of aberration, and promises dwindle away.
They say: death makes us separate because our souls live in two different worlds. But they do not talk about death of relationships , death of friendships in which two people annihilate the word “Forever “ from their actuality, break ties, end emotional connections while co-existing in each other’s memories quite randomly.
Mara lives in my mind each time I utter “Whatever”, convincing her friendship vows of youth: We are meant to be together forever!
Exactly 330 words for Trifecta Writing Challenge : “Trifecta: Week 109“
The words , feelings expressed in the story are true ; the name “Mara” is not.