“Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards.”
― Søren Kierkegaard
“Maybe it was not a bad year,” I whisper to myself after seeing another friend’s “A Great Year in Review” clip on my FB news feed. “Maybe the goods were more powerful than the evils, maybe smiles were overpowering all the tears,” I keep thinking while chopping carrots, onions, cauliflower florets. Sometimes multi-tasking calms my mind and helps me to find priorities.
Priorities. Aren’t they the most fragile things in life? They appear and then vanish to nothingness after you find another fancy toy to hold on to. I remember, I wanted to wear many hats in 2014. Honestly no such dramatic thing happened. I’m still seeking good moments through a big camera lens, polishing my skills and wearing the same pair of unpolished boots. I wore a few new hats though, but nothing made me intellectually fulfilled. I read that powerful line by Rumi again and again – what you seek is seeking you. Not sure why 2014 does not have that magnetic power to make it all true!
My phone doesn’t agree with me when I want this year to go. It has stored close to seven thousand odd moments when I felt like the happiest and most content person on earth.
The phone of a moment catcher doesn’t lie, even though my heart lies at times and wants to call 2014 not really a good year.
Sometimes we worry about the bad things, while the good things just walk along and stay unnoticed, like that best friend from high school who every protagonist ignores in almost all rom-coms. Sometimes we feel miserable after losing a few dreams that were not supposed to come true, sometimes we ignore the possibilities that needed little efforts; sometimes we miss the big picture while trying to use our highlighter pens on those little details that won’t matter after a year.
A year is big. 1 year. 12 months. 365 days. 8765.81 hours. And many good and bad moments. We all have those moments each year; yet it’s daunting to let them all go and welcome another one with a fresh mind. I wish I had the shift+delete button for all the negative emotions my mind retained time to time.
I hope I can accept a year the way it is supposed to be, discourage my OCD to make everything perfect. No year will be perfect or smooth, even though I secretly won’t stop hoping for a perfect year, a perfect world around a wiser self.
This introspective post is inspired by Phoneography and Non-SLR Digital Devices Photo Challenge: Editing and Processing (The Light of Day)
“It matters not where or how far you travel…but how much alive you are.”- Henry David Thoreau